Hoping everyone had a wonderful Memorial Day weekend!!! On Sunday, we got together with my mom's side of the family for most of the day. It was a good time to see everyone again and catch up. This is the second year we've done this. It was a long day. We had a 3.5 hour trip to get there in the morning and one to head home again that night. Lets just say that on Monday ... we slept in really late! The Sunday with my family made me realize just how fast a year has gone. I remember really clearly when we saw everyone last year. All the babies last year are now toddlers and everyone's growing up way to fast!
My parents were the only family there without grandkids (they are the only family on BOTH sides of the family without grandkids). I don't know if it bugs my parents like it does me, but it bugs me (darn that jealousy) that my other family members are able to get pregnant (so easily). My aunt & uncle, for example, have two sons in their early twenties. One of their sons has three boys already and their other son just welcomed a daughter four months ago (both my cousins had kids at a young age out of wedlock). This same aunt and uncle also "accidentally" got pregnant with twins. If you've lost count, thats six little kids under the age of six. My other cousin has three little boys and is pregnant with her fourth. She's 34. In her struggle to get pregnant this last time, she had two miscarriages within the last year. She's been able to get pregnant with only "a few months of trying." I don't wish her ill at all (I've prayed that she would be able to get pregnant & carry the baby to term), its just hard to watch them enjoy something you'd like to enjoy too.
The hubby and I had a long talk in the car on the way home. We want to be parents more than we want to get pregnant. I have been calling around getting information these last few weeks from different adoption agencies and attorneys and we have narrowed it down to one option ... and a plan. We are going to keep on with the medicines at PPVI, but we're going to start the adoption process. A local agency has some reasonable fees and we can complete our homestudy with them. There's no guarantee of a baby with PPVI and there's no guarantee of a baby through adoption. If anything happens with us babywise and God blesses us, that's great, but I'm tired of "waiting" for something to happen. My dad, who is very religious, is praying for us ... and keeps telling us to pray, but God doesn't always answer prayers in the way (or timeframe) that you want sometimes.
At the end of September, it will be one year since my laparotomy. I don't know if adoption is what God wants me to be thinking (or if these are the appropriate thoughts in which to begin the adoption process), but I'm just going to jump. In praying at church a few weeks ago, I realized that God isn't going to "take it easy" on me. He knows I can handle the tough stuff, so maybe I AM supposed to pursue adoption. It isn't an easy road, but I've read many blogs where it is so fulfilling and rewarding and people can't remember what their lives were like without their children. I want that. And because I want that, I'm going to start down a new path.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Muddin' Escapades
Well, friends, it was a crazy Friday, which turned into an unmotivated weekend. For work (I design Kitchens), I have to go into people's homes and measure their existing spaces before beginning to design something new. My Friday measure didn't go as planned ...
I live in a smaller town of about 50,000 and there are several clients who live outside of town in the country. I had a measure that morning for a job that was just outside of town. Well, it had rained that morning and a bridge was out, so I tried to find another route to go a little out of my way and get back to the same road I was on. In my attempt to re-route, one of the roads I turned onto was a mud road, not one with gravel. Oops! By the time I could slow down, I couldn't go backward or forward without the wheels spinning. I was stranded! Argh!!!
I called into work and two of the guys came out in a pickup to pull me out. Well, they couldn't make it down the road without going into the ditch!!! The first attempt was to slide off into the right ditch. With a lot of rocking forward & back, they were able to get back to the gravel. The second attempt wasn't much better and they slid onto the left side of the ditch. They pulled back onto the gravel and I decided to leave them there and I would roll up my jeans, take off my shoes and walk out to the gravel road and just leave my vehicle locked and sitting there on the side of the road.
The nice guys that they were, they were bound and determined to come out and meet me part way so I wouldn't have to walk so far. Well, lets just say they should have stayed back on the road. :) After I got in the truck, we tried to backing up to the gravel road, but we slid off into the left ditch again and couldn't get out!!! The pickup was slanted into the ditch, which was full of water. Mud was flying, wheels were spinning, the engine was smoking and the poor guy driving was trying all sorts of maneuvers. We were contemplating calling into the store to send ANOTHER person out to get the three of us!
However, a few prayers to Mary and St. Rita of Cascia and we gave it one last go. And we made it! When we got back to the store, everyone was amazed at how muddy the pickup was. It was quite the morning!
P.S. The REAL color of the truck is blue ... which you can see (barely) near the front bumper.
That afternoon, I received a home-made sign that showed a picture of a truck driving through a swampy marshland / river and the tagline said "Look out! Amanda's Measuring Again!" Oh, the joys of making a fool of yourself at work! Lets just say that I had a few drinks that night!
I live in a smaller town of about 50,000 and there are several clients who live outside of town in the country. I had a measure that morning for a job that was just outside of town. Well, it had rained that morning and a bridge was out, so I tried to find another route to go a little out of my way and get back to the same road I was on. In my attempt to re-route, one of the roads I turned onto was a mud road, not one with gravel. Oops! By the time I could slow down, I couldn't go backward or forward without the wheels spinning. I was stranded! Argh!!!
I called into work and two of the guys came out in a pickup to pull me out. Well, they couldn't make it down the road without going into the ditch!!! The first attempt was to slide off into the right ditch. With a lot of rocking forward & back, they were able to get back to the gravel. The second attempt wasn't much better and they slid onto the left side of the ditch. They pulled back onto the gravel and I decided to leave them there and I would roll up my jeans, take off my shoes and walk out to the gravel road and just leave my vehicle locked and sitting there on the side of the road.
The nice guys that they were, they were bound and determined to come out and meet me part way so I wouldn't have to walk so far. Well, lets just say they should have stayed back on the road. :) After I got in the truck, we tried to backing up to the gravel road, but we slid off into the left ditch again and couldn't get out!!! The pickup was slanted into the ditch, which was full of water. Mud was flying, wheels were spinning, the engine was smoking and the poor guy driving was trying all sorts of maneuvers. We were contemplating calling into the store to send ANOTHER person out to get the three of us!
However, a few prayers to Mary and St. Rita of Cascia and we gave it one last go. And we made it! When we got back to the store, everyone was amazed at how muddy the pickup was. It was quite the morning!
P.S. The REAL color of the truck is blue ... which you can see (barely) near the front bumper.
That afternoon, I received a home-made sign that showed a picture of a truck driving through a swampy marshland / river and the tagline said "Look out! Amanda's Measuring Again!" Oh, the joys of making a fool of yourself at work! Lets just say that I had a few drinks that night!
Friday, May 13, 2011
If you never ...
If you never felt pain, then how would you know that I am a Healer?
If you never had to pray, How would you know that I am a Deliverer?
If you never had a trial, how could you call yourself an overcomer?
If you never felt sadness, How would you know that I am a Comforter?
If you never made a mistake, How would you know that I am a forgiver?
If you knew all, How would you know that I will answer your questions?
If you never were in trouble, How would you know that I will come to your rescue?
If you never were broken, Then how would you know that I can make you whole?
If you never had a problem, How would you know that I can solve them?
If you never had any suffering, Then how would you know what I went through?
If you never went through the fire, Then how would you become pure?
If I gave you all things, How would you appreciate them?
If I never corrected you, How would you know that I love you?
If you had all power, Then how would you learn to depend on me?
Love, Jesus
P.S. This was an email forward, but oh, how it speaks to me! I thought I would share.
This had some amazing pictures ... but I couldn't get them to stick on my blog ... :(
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
TMI Post
Well .... I'm still waiting to see some good mucus. Today is CD12 and I'm not sure what's going on with my body. All I've seen so far is 2AD or 4AD. Nothing that stretches even a t.i.n.y bit. Nuthin'. I suppose I should be grateful that if its not this, it could be something worse. On CD7, only after going #2, I had some mucus that stretched about 2"!!! It was fantastic (if you're into that ... like me! haha) However, that's the only time I've seen ANYTHING this cycle.
I'm taking the following to help solve the problem:
- 500 mg Amoxicillin (2x per day)
- 1200 mg Mucinex (2x per day)
- FertileCM (3x per day)
- Eating raw carrots
- Drinking plenty of water (about 60 oz at work + more at home)
I don't know WHAT to do. I just don't understand why my body can't work properly! Has anyone known of (or themselves) conceived with this lack of mucus? I guess I also ask because I have IM Progesterone shots to give on P+4, 7 & 10 ... but I'm trying to figure out WHAT is my peak day?
I just started taking 7.5 mcg of T3. Would this hinder anything?
On the brighter side, for "(Cat) Mother's Day", the hubby and I went shopping for me! :) I found some shirts that will give me a few more outfits for work and some new shoes and jewelry. We did celebrate with a meal out (non-Endo Diet), so I ended up having a really good day! It was a little rough b/c of all the "Happy Mothers Day" postings on Facebook. I held back from posting something about "those of us that want to be Mothers" ... I think that was pretty wise.
Hope you ladies all have a great week! I know we have lots of fabulous bloggers praying for us "Island Dwellers" to join them in the Place of the Sun. I hope we remember them in prayer and look for God's answers in our daily lives.
** UPDATED **
Check out the Infertility T-Shirt slogans at "Making God Laugh" ... these are GREAT!!! Too bad they weren't available for pre-order before Mother's Day!
** UPDATED **
Check out the Infertility T-Shirt slogans at "Making God Laugh" ... these are GREAT!!! Too bad they weren't available for pre-order before Mother's Day!
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