Saturday, September 24, 2011

I'm Confused

Its been awhile since I've thought I had a double peak.  But this month, it seems that I am having one.

Day 10 - 6CK x2
Day 11 - 10CKL x1 (1-1/2" stretch)
Day 12 - 4AD
Day 13 - 10KL x1 (1-1/4" stretch) ... Peak Day
Day 14 - 4AD
Day 15 - 4AD
Day 16 - 6PC AD

The last four months I have peaked on Day 13, Day 10, Day 12 & Day 12, respectively.  I thought nothing of it.  I took my Ammoxicillan & Mucinex 3x per day as directed.  I stopped 2 days after my Peak on Day 15.

Imagine my surprise when on Day 17, my P+4, when I'm supposed to get a IM Progesterone shot, I see a 10KL (1" stretch)!  I thought it was a fluke.  I wanted to disregard it.  My hubby and I had quite a discussion on how to treat it ... as a fluke -OR- we actually pay attention and count it as a fertile sign.  I'm not much for shots, so it was easy to convince me that YES!  It was a fertile sign.

Imagine my surprise again, when today (Day 18) I also saw a 10CKL (1-1/2" stretch).  I guess my body is being totally weird this month!  I'm not any mucus enhancing drugs at all either (I typically MUST be on them to see ANYTHING!).  The only (gross) thing about all this is ... even during my fertile time this month ... I only see the mucus after a bowel movement.  I must be an alien life form.

My question ... AM I right?  Do I consider this a "double-peak" and start my shots in 4 days and do my P+7 bloodwork in 7 days?

Just when I thought my cycles were getting to be somewhat "normal" .....  they're not!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Learning How to be Patient ...

Our photo book and "Dear Birthmother" letters are complete!!!  Ok, maybe they could be proofread again, but I really feel a sense of accomplishment on just having them 99% done.  We made the "big push" to get them done late last night because Sue, our adoption case worker, was coming to our house this afternoon to review our homestudy and we wanted to show them to her for her opinion.  I just found out over the noon hour that she won't be able to make it today, she has pneumonia.  That's a little serious!  We re-scheduled until next Monday afternoon.  Hmmm.  One more chance to learn the art of patience.

Sue had mailed us a copy of the homestudy paperwork she's written up so we could review it and correct any errors.  In reading over our homestudy paperwork, lets just say that she had a LOT of errors!  I guess I'm a little surprised at how many times we were asked questions about our family/schooling/whatever on two separate occasions and she still has that info incorrect.  I know she wrote it down both times.  I'm trying to give her the benefit of the doubt, though too.  I know she has alot going on at her job, however, accuracy is sure important!  We have lots of crossing out and arrows.  :)  Hopefully this has happened to several of you regarding paperwork inaccuracies?   Sue is the greatest lady, but I'm starting to wonder ....

The one thing I did enjoy reading was the snippets of nice things our references said about our abilities to be parents.  The final paragraph of the paperwork was Sue's own recommendation that she sees us as great parents-to-be.  When I first read that, I cried.  Its like we're finally getting somewhere.  Someone recognizes our potential as parents.

In other news, at my Endocrinologist appointment, I found out that my T4 (and something else, I forgot) was low, so this gal is now taking Synthroid at 50 mcg.  So much for not taking any thyroid meds!  I was in hopes that my right half of the thyroid would supplement for my missing left half, but that's just how my body seems to be ... breaking down.  I'm not looking forward to getting older and MORE medical problems.  :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

I Survived Last Weekend!

Of course, you all knew I would survive.  :)

It was a long night at the K-State game on Saturday, which was L.O.N.G. and boring until the last 3 minutes of the game.  I swear there were a full three quarters where the score was 0 to 0.  It was painful to watch ... both teams need more practice.  My pregnant SIL, her hubby and I ended up sitting by each other in a row ... me next to her.  Even after I begged and pleaded with my DH to please *NOT* have me sit by them, he leaves for a drink and they come down to sit in the seats beside me, so my DH has to sit in the seats a few rows up where they were.  We made small talk.  Our seats were pretty high up in the stadium and when I thought about the gift my SIL & BIL were given (it was in the front of my mind all the time), I teared up ... BUT I thought about all the generous ladies who were praying for me and I felt better.  I wasn't alone that day.  I'm not alone with my feelings.  I'm not alone in my journey.  Your prayers helped SO much!  Thank you!!!

We had a quick trip the next morning to CO for my cousin's wedding ... 7 hours in a car on Sunday AM with the wedding that night & then we turned around and left the next day about 11 am and drove back 7 hours.  I don't think I want to do that again for a long time.  It was a beautiful wedding!  My cousin's dress was gorgeous, the decorations were super cute and the reception site and dinner were fabulous!  All this within view of the mountains.

I took the next day (Tuesday) off and did practically nothing.  :)  Well, I did end up finishing my adoption picture book & am now 2.5 pages into my Dear Birthmother letter (my husband is only one paragraph in, oh dear!).  I think that I can finish the rest up this weekend ... that is my goal.  We have a meeting with our Adoption Case Worker on Tuesday afternoon to review our homestudy, so I thought I'd go over our letters and photo book and she can let us know what to change.  I also might google Dear Birthmother letter examples thanks to a post from GIMH.  I'd never thought of that.  :)  Like GIMH says, I just need help knowing what to say & putting it into words.  Some people write things out so eloquently.

My BIL in the National Guard has been stationed in our city for the last three weeks and spending every night with us (he does leave to sleep at the barracks).  Its been hard to be productive around the house as well as exercise, but I enjoy his company.  My sister (his wife) is coming down tonight to spend the weekend with us/him.  I'm looking forward to it.  We'll have alot more time to hang out than last weekend's trip.

I found out a few days ago (from my military BIL) that my sister & him are having trouble conceiving, which I kind of wondered about.  I'd assumed they used birth control (I know, I know ... I'm assuming ... I know how much it irks me when people assume).  They're Catholic, but I'm not sure exactly how much they adhere to everything in the family planning department.  Anyway, they've been married for 4 years as of June 2nd.  He just got back this last June from a year overseas and was deployed about 5-6 years ago for a year as well.  In my conversation with him, he's not sure whether its him (with all the stuff they vaccinate/expose them to in the military) or my sister (we are quite the sterile family, huh?).  I told them that NaPro & PPVI is working for us (although we've yet to get pregnant), but he thinks that he'll get tested and if nothing's wrong, then my sister will get shots that help you get pregnant.  Huh?  I couldn't figure out what that meant.  Clomid?  HCG?  IUI?  He didn't know either.  I wasn't sure what to say to him, as his mind sounded made up.  I do plan to say something before they start any "shots" b/c I would hate to see them jump to anything immoral (like an IUI) and/or get pregnant and lose the baby b/c there's an underlying medical condition they didn't know about.  That's the only silver lining in my infertility journey, I haven't had to experience the pain of a miscarriage.  It would be THE worst thing.

Lastly, prayer buddies have been working overtime!  There have been several great pregnancy announcements lately:  Perfect Power in Weakness, Rise & Shine & Give God the Glory, and Matching Moonheads.  Hopefully there are more to come!  Congratulations, ladies!!!