Rediscovering Myself

This feels kinda weird ... it has been August since my last post.  =)

I have wanted to pop in to let you know what has been happening in the meantime, but honestly, I've been in a funk this past year and that is part of the reason for the lack of blogging, as well as the lack of reading blogs.

So today, I got the urge to update the 'ol blog a little ... new colors and a design that feels like "me" right now.  And also updating my blog title too.  That feels like more "me" too.  Before, I have felt that the title "All in His Perfect Timing" was just about my infertility journey and anytime I blogged about Luke or other "mom stuff", I was doing a dis-service to those still waiting.

Guilt.  That was another reason I realized today about why I've kind of checked out this last year.  Guilt that I am a mom and I still pray for my friends still waiting.  Guilt that I left my old job and my friend (and co-worker) almost two years ago pretty suddenly.  I'm a sensitive person who cares too much about what others think of me and that holds me back in some ways, I guess.

I've been going to Holy Hour Adoration weekly since Thanksgiving (in God's providence, I "coincidentally" have the same day and time that I did when I went in Kansas ~ it is meant to be).  I am reading the book "Rediscover Catholicism" by Matthew Kelly.  The last paragraph of the current chapter I'm in says the following, "If you want your future to be different from your past, there is only one way:  Change your habits.  Our lives change when our habits change."  

I've had some pretty bad habits during the last few years and I want to change that.  The human side of me (the side of least resistance and the "self-destructive" side) has won out.  I've been neglectful of many things that I want to change.  Blogging is just one of them.  I'd like to engage more and I miss reading about your lives and having the opportunity to pray for you.

Wishing you a Blessed "Best-Version-of Yourself" New Year!!